Leaping into Faith, daily reflection February 19 – Whiskey and Porn for Everyone: By Karin L Burke
In the first weeks of my sobriety, my poems began to change. There was a new element of uncertainty, the unknown, and walking along edges. All that talk about hitting bottoms: it seems to me not bottom but precipice; we teeter on an edge and look down. We don’t know what’s down there, how far it might go. The alcoholic entering recovery makes a gamble: he trades in what he knows for something he cannot know, he can’t imagine, and can’t understand. He jumps.
Gambling is not the same as bargaining. That we did all the time. Bargaining is an act of control, of hanging on with your teeth, of arguing your point until half-way decent is found. Gambling is a different thing. Gambling is what happens when you take the whole of your life, or as much of it as you can stand, put it into an untidy pile, and hand it over.
Alcoholics are people who have fallen apart."
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